i didn't realize until today how strong i could be emotionally. i saw mom in the hospital for the first time since the stroke. And, although i wanted to, i didn't cry over the situation. Even when they told us that it could be months before mom is home. That's a scary prospect for me. But i have to do something about it, i can't just sit here and let everything pass me by.

So if that happens, i'm formulating plans for what i'll do for transportation and child care and all that. It's a long road ahead, but i think i'm strong enough to walk it.