i'm determined to blog earlier in the evenings, when i can think quite a bit more.

Another day, another struggle with my submissive side. i don't know if it's because of mom's condition or if it's because it's been so long since i've been in a submissive headspace and i've just fallen out of practice, but it's so hard to get myself feeling like that again. i did it the other night when i was able to orgasm, but it was only for a short while and it disappeared by morning.

i haven't really brought this up to Master yet. i know i need to, but i didn't realize how much of a problem it's become until i sat down to write this. But i really need to find ways to bring that back into my life. i'm just not sure how to do this.