i'm starting to think my health is failing me. Maybe it's just the realization that i have a lot of disorders, both physical and mental. Or maybe it's the fact that i've had a sharp pain in my ovaries on and off for months now. But really, i think it's because, by the time my mom was the age i am right now, she had been diagnosed with cervical cancer.

It scares me to death to think about having bad health problems like my mom has. And i'm late on my pop smear this year. So i'm so scared that maybe i've got some major problems going on there. Luckily, i have an appointment in two days, but i don't know what i'd do if something was wrong. i don't think i could handle it, not with everything else that's going on in my life.