Pain

Today was just an extremely long day. Not only that, but it was hot and i was in a lot of pain in my ears.

i don't handle unpleasant pain well. Although i'm a masochist and enjoy pain when it's applied correctly, this kind of pain is unbearable because it feels there will never be any relief. i'm not sure if i can even explain it right. For instance, i enjoy the pain that's caused during play from bites, spankings, floggings, etc. because the sting that slowly fades. But this ache in my ear feels as if someone is continually stabbing me there and it won't let up.

Either way, i've taken some medicine, so hopefully the pain will subside. Unfortunately, there's not much that can be done with it wants to flare up like this. i was born with defective ears and all the scar tissue from the surgeries sometimes just hurt for no real reason. Luckily, i see my doctor next month and will mention it to her again, but they never do anything about it.