i haven't felt very submissive lately. It's not that i don't do what Master has asked or completed my tasks, but it doesn't feel like it's actually useful in any way. Master insists that it's to help me learn, so all i can do is trust him and believe that it is useful.

Maybe it's because i suspect i have an ear infection and i don't feel up to my best. It's strange, but it seems like i only feel truly submissive when i'm at 100%. i just don't get it.