PTSD

my PTSD was triggered pretty badly today. It induced a panic attack so bad that i had to be brought to the ER via ambulance. i'm fine now, but my body wouldn't move and i couldn't breathe. It was really scary and i don't understand how anyone could inflict so much trauma on another human that it would cause them to have attacks like i had today.

But, i think, if i had to do my life all over again, i'd make the same choices, bad times and all, because all those choices brought me to Master. And, even though i have to struggle with all the terrible side effects of it, it's all worth it because i get to be with Master.