Today was a bit of a breakthrough for me. Or i would at least like to think so. Even when i messed up, i didn't yell at myself or treat myself like i was a terrible person or anything. i just reminded myself that i'm allowed to make mistakes and i moved on.
i haven't been able to do this for a very long time, if ever in my life. And i'm really, really happy with myself over all of this. For the first time, i feel free to really be myself without fear, because no one is here to beat me up if i'm wrong.