i know, quite the shock eh? i never really thought i was perfect, but i used to strive to be. In some ways, i still do. i'm a perfectionist to an unhealthy degree. So much so that my self esteem suffers if i just can't do things right. And that's something Master has been working with me on fixing.
It's starting small. i mean, it's so goofy to even admit this, but i used to spaz out whenever i would lose at video games. Truly, i was the definition of a poor sport. Now, even if i lose, i can easily shrug it off. i did my best, why worry any more?
But other aspects of my life, i'm still having difficulties thinking this way. Particularly when Master asks something of me. If it's not 100%, just exactly right, i really beat myself up mentally. i try to apply the same logic that i do with video games, but it just doesn't seem to fit right.
But this is still a good step forward. At least i can do this now.