Two steps back

i've had a major setback today. My agoraphobia is rearing its ugly head again and i'm so afraid to even set foot outside. Even when i went to take the trash out tonight, i felt like the neighbors were staring at me and i had to hurry and run back inside.

All of this, i think, confuses Master. He's never really known me like this, and in a way, i really feel it puts a strain on our relationship. We talked a lot tonight, but i still feel like i've destroyed things way too much.