But i guess that's because i'm not a naturally happy person. Perhaps someday, but i kind of doubt it. With all that i've been through and all the therapy i've still got to go through and i just... i feel as if i just make things worse for everyone.
Master says i need to trust in my succubus side. And i try. But it seems when i do that, i feel more and more ill physically. i don't understand what's even going on.
i feel as if i need to just... restart myself. It's a strange thought, though.