i allowed myself some time to relax tonight. It was really great. i sad down with some pizza and a root beer and some video games and just... felt normal. This was seriously one of the best nights alone that i've ever had. And i couldn't believe that i have come so far as to allow myself to do something like that. It was really nothing i had ever done before.
Master seems to enjoy my new approach to life as well. Though he hasn't said anything directly, i can just tell that he respects what i'm doing with myself. He notices that i seem happier and just mentally healthier. And that's really, to me, the best part about all of this. i can be happy and indulge myself a bit and still manage to make Master happy? This is really a great life.