i'm not doing well right now. Not just physically, but mentally. i'm having really bad performance issues and i find myself wondering if it's like when a guy can't get it up. i mean, a succubus that gets nauseated at the thought of sex? What is that?
Master keeps insisting it's not "defective," so i'm trying to change the way i think about it. But honestly, my mind keeps coming back to that word. There's not much i'm good at, and having sex is one of the few things on that list. So if i can't do that, then what is there for me?
i guess it's just something else i'm going to have to meditate on. Might as well do that since it looks like i won't be getting off tonight. Again.