i strive to find a balance between my life as a pet and my life as a non-pet. at times, it's very difficult, particularly when i have to put on my mommy hat or my caretaker hat. it drives me crazy at times because all i want to do is serve Master to my fullest capacity and, oftentimes, i feel like i'm robbed of that opportunity by outside influences.
i honestly worry if i will ever find the right kind of balance between it. but i'm sure, someday, i will. it's just that i'm so new to everything and i would love to just throw myself into it completely, regardless of the rest of my circumstances. but unfortunately, i can't do that.