i am not a people-person. i don't like socializing. i don't like being around large crowds. i don't even like being around SMALL crowds. So it's very difficult for me to actually want to become close to someone.
Master was different. When we first met, i felt drawn to him. i can't explain the initial attraction, honestly. There was just something magnetic that drew me into him that i just couldn't resist. Even now, i can't really explain what it is. It could be his dominating presence, but i'm not attracted to most people who display that kind of presence.
i don't know. i can't explain anything and i'm starting to think this whole blog is just a waste of space. i don't feel as if i can really get everything out because my thoughts are always so scrambled and just. i don't know. Master wants to know my thoughts, but it's difficult because they're always so out of place and i don't even know why the reasons i do things.