When this journey with Master first began, i was so sure it was going to result in a loss of "self." At the very least, i questioned it and wasn't sure if i wanted that or didn't want that. My personal identity had never had too much of an impact on those around me, or no real impact that i could tell, so it wasn't something that i really thought about too much. So, for the most part, it wasn't a truly big loss if i didn't have a sense of self.
But it obviously bothered some part of me, because the idea of losing it scared me. And i was so afraid that by consenting to be Master's pet, i was going to lose that last bit that made up me. i never let it deter me from what i wanted with Master and, really, i'm glad i didn't. Because being Master's pet has actually had a completely opposite effect than i had ever suspected. Instead of losing myself, i find that i'm actually discovering myself.
Being Master's pet is as much a part of me as anything else is, even moreso in the case of things like my anxieties. i don't think i could live a truly happy life without the knowledge that i'm a simple pet. i'm really quite pleased that all this has worked out so different than the way i thought it was going to.