i've been trying to, anyway. And not just in my skin, but in my mind and my views on myself and the world. i've come into the realization lately that i feel quite a bit different than other people i know. Maybe this is just a young adult version of the teenage "oh i'm so alone" kind of thing, but it doesn't feel the same kind of loneliness i felt as a teenager when i was going through that phase.
But i'm starting to be comfortable with who i am. As i mentioned previously, i often have succubus tendencies. So much so that, as i think about it, who's to say that i'm not unlike a succubus? i want to start living my life as if i were a bit more than human, because that's how i feel. Mostly, i'm afraid of how people will accept that part of me. i mean, it sounds crazy. But it feels right for me and, really, it wouldn't be hurting anyone for me to live how i feel.
i guess it's just the fear of rejection. i think i have a bigger fear than most, simply because i've got an irrational need to never fail and rejection feels like failure. But i also know that if i don't do this, i will never be happy. i have to do this for myself.